Butter Eclipse Energetic Danger
somatic safety and the protecting my capacity for grace of it all
I am coming off of 5 days in Hawai’i with four people who entered this realm through the same womb I did and the man who assisted. My dad, a recovering megalomaniac, showered me in his fatherly doctrine of protection ruled by his desire for me to live a long life governed by perspective, stress reduction, and energetic safety.
I am giving you a little something on a Thursday because this afternoon I am heading to Vermont for the Performance and New Dance Arrivals Lab 1 artist residency with Ishmael Houston-Jones and Keith Hennessy where I will have no cell service for 10 whole days which I absolutely love for me — being on the internet right now is a relentless battle cry. Snail mail me though: 61 Williams Road, Bellows Falls, VT 05101.
I am noticing my shoulders relax as I step into my city’s politely crisp air, hovering through urban traffic, rumbling over this newsletter post. I want to take some time to acknowledge (maybe in the next newsletter) how many relationships I have committed to. Relationships impact in known and unknown ways. I am always learning from Meenadchi, again and again, I can witness without carrying — a deep and playful consent practice with self — the consent practice often left to fend. Negotiations and limitations, when I sit with them, bubble up toward creation. Below is a poem I wrote. For me, poems are processes of purposes and I love them there — in that place.
“over-coupling”, a poem by kamra
organic raw trauma poured direct limbic brain lasso rain up proper and sweet ways to be coral blue known to be true keeps safe goes too far still intelligent dig roots source where trauma again scowls parent friend beyond that which understands fever hot volcanic eruption over torso hot cryptic poem only source can revel swallow partial truth still seen your limitations my radiance blasts grounds open no other kind of king freedom mine freedom king freedom be limbic brain on turn knob had no fear fear valid protection energy long life stress continuum spectrum choose conflict wisely limbic brain that part soften intelligence love’s mental more autocorrect check forever more language meaning freedom under-coupling grace play trust self intuitive body says limbic brain forever more
My beautiful limbic system does a lot to keep me safe. It is the home of my feelings and has influenced my relationship with safety and protection especially as it relates to the way sensations manifest in my body. The girls in this here body are always communicating, synapsing, and making moves before making moves to make sure I have everything I need. That is a love I have always had.
Until after June 5, care ecologist