Care whore or have i been groomed by a perpetual care crisis?
pleasure healing socialization pain, care politics, and the get off we seek
I learn so much about life through sexuality and have been actively teased about it — but Audre Lorde is proud and that is all that matters. Through crisis, care landscapes in my body are wildly mutating. I thought the care crisis would slay me like the dragon I am, but it is actually turning me into an even kinkier freak than I thought I had the capacity to be. What is that saying? What does not kill you, makes you hornier?
Anyway, I was prepared to give it all up navigating surmounting care crisis and amidst losing my mind, fell into a concave of delusional pleasure. In a certain place, triggered and dissociated into care performance, I responded to each of my crushes ephemeral delights with immediate manifestation — and in a conjunct space, was dutifully angry when I did not receive immediate cleaning support in the kitchen, a trauma response to my parents’ care dynamics.
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